Have you ever felt mad at God? It’s pointless and ridiculous, but it happens to the best of us!
I have. I was pissed at God for years and years, because I had these expectations that I felt he/she didn’t meet.
See, I blamed God for letting my mom suffer and die from cancer. I was a “miracle baby” because she had cancer when she was pregnant with me and the doctors swore we’d both die. But we made it, and her cancer went into remission. I was 10 when it came back, and 15 when she died. For 5 long years I PRAYED. And prayed and prayed and prayed, every night, for God and Jesus Christ and anyone else who was listening to alleviate her pain, to make her well again, and most of all, to keep her with me because I was a kid and I loved her more than anyone else in the world.
And then, she did suffer (big time) and she died. So I turned my back on God and was depressed for aeons.
Here’s what changed everything.
One day, I received an amazing clairvoyant reading and healing that woke up my soul, and gradually, after learning how to be psychic, I decided I’d try and use that ability to figure out a) who and what God is b) why my mom suffered and c) how I felt about it all. I now 100% know that God did hear my prayers, and while my mom still suffered and died, God was with me the entire time. Looking back, I had a surprisingly optimistic outlook for someone going through that. And after it happened, many, many incredible people were there to help me out, including an angel therapist named Joy who I’ll never forget, and well it just makes me cry to think about it.
You probably have your own ideas and feelings about God, and because that’s so personal, I’m not gonna preach at you. But I will say, I feel way better loving God now than I ever did not loving her/him. This Monday, as I reclined in the dentist’s chair getting drilled for my birthday crown (I got a crown as a belated birthday present to myself! I love crowns! Just not the kind they put on your teeth!), I just meditated and prayed the whole time. I called the Archangels in as I did when my son was born, and I swear to you they were there, and Archangel Michael held my hand and told me to be strong.
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